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Chapter One pg.3

Well this morning went off as good as it possibly could. I mean I could have stayed in bed all day but morning called. Bonus was I was up before the children after the sleep over. The girls didn’t go to bed until 12:30am which means I didn’t actually go to bed until 1 in the morning. Anyways, My spiritual posse has been calling on me to pay attention, probably because I’ve had a lot on my mind. I pulled an amazing spread that spoke to me on so many levels.

As much about I’m always writing about how to navigate through the treacherous waters of life with love on your side, I’m still this littler girl with Big Dreams. I’ve always dreamt of owning my own business for as long as I could remember, I would play in my room as if it was my office, processing paperwork, all while looking after my baby doll. It was a cabbage patch kid. I’ve never thought I would do anything else. I could never quite put my finger on what the business would be but it was all mine. After having my son I couldn’t quite see myself not staying home to raise him. I also thought it was a good opportunity for me to start my dream business… Whatever that was. Now I’m very creative and am always wanting to invent and reinventing. I also never give up. I have had a lot of different people not believe in me, and honestly though I would make it. It just gave me more of a reason to work harder to prove to myself and to everyone else that dreams do come true.

So to be honest, I’ve been through many start ups and only just getting it off the shelf, only to put the dream back on the shelf. Frustrating of course. I’ve always let fear get to me. Fear of failing and having people tell me I told you so or this fear that I end up working this horrible desk job that pays a lot of money but makes me super miserable. All the woman in my life have worked great jobs but were never happy. So I thought if  did what they did, I would never have the opportunity to find out what makes me happy.  I think I finally figured it out. What makes me happy is ME!. Working on the unknown does for sure stress me out. I mean I do have to navigate between being a mom and being a business owner. Your time is always split, and both jobs are 24/7. But working on the unknown excites me. It makes me realize that I have a lot faith in myself or I wouldn’t keep getting back up again.

The tarot cards that I pulled were so accurate. Projects are fruitful, Faith and Confidence are high and will continue to rise. I need to stay focused AF and all will be well. I have to say, although my computer was giving me a mild heart attack earlier during the day due to all these software updates for 2019. Ugh!. Just when I’m trying to set 2019 off right. I guess it’s just a reminder that anything can happen during this process. I’m sure I’ll have a lot more to share.

Well before I head off to bed…. Yesterday was the first launch of Righteous Sun website out to the social media crowd. I kept it quiet to my Fam. I actually kept it quiet with almost everyone. I didn’t want the distractions, and I also second guess myself. This project feels different then the others. Maybe because for the first time it’s for me. Most of the other projects were for other people. Whether it was for my kids creating kids accessories for them or me giving a healing to others who were in need. This one just feels different. It makes me nervous as hell but I’m taking it all in stride. BTW… The launch is my online cosmetic and skin care Boutique. My goal is to provide people with all natural vegan friendly cruelty free cosmetics and skin care for the everyday and play!… You like those play on words?… Lol!

Ok Its getting late. I’m putting out there that I will be making $60,000 plus by the end of 2019. Big Dreams I guess… But Why Not?

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Learning as I Go

Well, it’s a learning process for sure when it comes to running a small business. I felt like I have dived a lot deeper than before, and the Universe is telling me to Woman up. Sigh! My finances are currently in hot water. “I AM PROSPEROUS” and I am being forced to make a lot of changes in my life in order to accommodate where my spirit currently is. Which in my opinion is light years ahead. So I have to keep up in more ways than one.

Over the summer I was battling with myself over getting a full time day job or sticking with my small business. I have an accepted partnership with the Toronto District School Board. Now what you need to know is that I had many proposals to many organizations, all of them being rejected except for one. The TDSB. I always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher, and after volunteering in my child school, I really wanted to make a difference and get paid.  So they accepted my proposal and got to work right away from January to June. The income became scarce once school was out for the summer and that’s when I got to thinking. When you have kids, it becomes tough to just do side hustle jobs like cleaning or working at the casino which all pays well by the way, it’s just that it’s a monthly income rather than every two weeks and it’s part time. I have a responsibility to provide for my kids and sometimes the best thing to do is to work a full day job and teach classes at night. Just a thought….You know, An easier way to supplement what I love to do. I also feel like I’m being impatient with the process. It would be nice to have fast results, especially when it comes to providing for my kids.

I spoke with a small business consultant and she basically said if I wasn’t making my small business my everything and contemplating going back to a full time job than I should just quit all together and that running a business wasn’t up my alley. She also thought I got a bad deal with my the school contract and told me I should get out of it as soon as possible. Kind of tough for me to hear that considering everything I worked hard to achieve and achieved most of them. Gary Vee, the motivational speaker says that there will be a lot of people that will give you advice. Just remember that most of them will be giving advice based on their own experiences which will be biased and might not have your best interest at hand. In my opinion I thought I did the best I could with the knowledge I had when signing the contract.

The consultant was a little biased, but she did say some valuable things…

  • Always make contracts work for you. Meaning you don’t have to sign the first contract that is put in front of you. Tweak it until it works for you. There is no harm in changing a contract until it suits you and all parties involved. But most You.
  • Know Your Worth. I am guilty of this one. Feeling like your gifts, talents and skills are not up to par with the rest. Go back and look at all your skill levels, I’m sure you’ll be pleasantly surprised with how much you have accomplished and all the gifts that you possess. If you feel like you haven’t accomplished much?… Be gentle with yourself and level up! take some weekend courses if you can go the library or to your closest book store! They have great learning material that can educate and inspire you. Any way to add value to yourself is a plus. And when you feel worthy about yourself, others will to.
  • Set realistic goals and expectations. Sometimes we have so many amazing ideas and we have no idea how to put all of them into action, let alone one into action. That’s why it is important to set real life goals. Write down your thoughts and ideas are so important because its like the next step before execution. Trying the idea out in the real world to see if it works or not. Now your expectations should always exceed beyond compare but please remember that its ok to be gentle with yourself if you don’t exceed it right away. There will be times….. When you won’t succeed on the first try. Never give up! and take it one step at a time so that you don’t repeat the same pattern and you find different routes. A door will eventually open.

Last but not least…

BE CONFIDENT! Never be afraid to ask for what you want and be confident in your dreams. Really believe and have faith in yourself and in the universe that things will always be provided for you and your family. Have faith in you ability to succeed, have faith in your gifts and use them with GUSTO! When you really get to know yourself, the confidence begins to grow within you because your getting comfortable in your skin and you’re allowing for spirit to take over. What a blessing!

I’ve realized once again that my passion and purpose must be done in this lifetime and it’s all life lessons. So I’m going to be gentle with myself during this process and not force things into existence due to fear. Ground yourself! to allow for sound decisions to be made and silence yourself for answers to come freely.

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Making Sense of it All

Wow!… Where to begin. To go all the way to the beginning would be a little much but would probably help me to understand why I am so committed to the term “Knowing Thy Self”.   Of course as a spiritual healer it wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t tell you that everything is a little backwards right now because of the Retrograde happening  in outer space. For those who are not in the astrology loop, a retrograde is a great time to stop everything in its tracks and do three important things. Rest, Reflect and Relax. Sounds amazing doesn’t it? Well…. A retrograde doesn’t always work out that way. What normally happens is that it forces everything to stop dead in its tracks and then rewinds it, all to make sure that you got the message so that you don’t repeat it again.

In my opinion, Retrogrades are like a bully that keeps pushing you down even when you keep getting back up every single time. Now that my friend, is called resiliency.

Retrogrades have done a number on my life and it’s always been about the same thing…. Finances. I was never one to want to work for someone if it wasn’t making me feel fulfilled. I also still feel this up to  this day, that if I was dreading waking up and doing a job that I didn’t love then my life was for what?….If that makes any sense. I’ve had a dream ever since I was a little girl…. To give and receive as much love as possible in this life time.

I grew up in a family that showed little love if any. And I saw a lot of hard work that went into building a foundation off of materialistic items rather than healthy unapologetic LOVE. I can’t blame them… and maybe I can’t blame myself for the decision I’ve had to battle with.

After having my son who is now 12…. I knew the moment I laid eyes on him, I could never leave him in the care of not one single soul until he could speak for himself. I was supposed to go back to my job as a receptionist but I was just figuring this whole Mom thing out and just getting the hang of it. He brought so much joy and a surge of possibilities and wonders that I forgot was there. Besides, Daycare was and still is a mortgage payment. So with that I chose to stay home….

I went on to have two more kids, all of them three years apart. I worked part time here and there and every now and then would run into people who I thought had amazing jobs and lives,  going through University and whole bit  and they would say that they were unhappy. so how to make sense of it all….

I’ve never had much in terms of finances, even as a kid and I hated it! I hated not being able to go on trips around the world like all my friends, to go to Florida for March break. You get the gest of it. I still haven’t been to Disneyland and I’m pretty sure you can’t get to Disneyland on love alone…. Can you?

I’ve always dreamed of starting my own business spreading love and healing others because I know how difficult it is to heal on our own…. And when you’re a Mom where that child needs you for everything including it’s memories and happiness…Sigh!…It can feel like A LOT of pressure. I can confidently say that if I never took that night to just sit in silence on my balcony I would have never known the joy of meditation. If I never took that prenatal yoga class downtown, which I might add, I was super afraid to go to on my own but I did… I would have never known the true joy and  of the gentleness of my body and what it was capable of doing. Body, mind and spirit. It changed my life.

You know now that I think about it…. It was spirit all along guiding me back to me. I did what I said I was going to do which was to open a healing business. However business has been slow getting off the ground. Yoga could be more consistent and that comes down to me having more confidence in going out there and believing in my gifts and promoting myself.

So I’m not sure if the Universe trying to tell me to find the balance of working a full time job to create a stable foundation to continue to work of the Universe or is it that the stable foundation comes from healthy love and the rest is history. Just trust the process.

I’ve went to many of profound gifted people who have all said that I will have a business that will literally grow on its own.  So far so good in the Yoga department. That I will travel the world spreading positive vibes and love and that I will inspire many people in the process. In the core of my being, I believe that with all my heart. It’s a bit difficult to see the bigger picture when other obstacles get in the way though.

The truth is….. I don’t want to go back to work full time in the corporate world. I’ve worked so hard in not only finding my voice and building the confidence to achieve what I’ve achieved up to this point and those are amazing accomplishments in itself. It just feels like I’m giving up and taking the easy route or the safest one…. But I want a house with a backyard and I want to travel with my family and experience all the wonders of the world… AND… have the means to do it without having to choose or scrounge…. ALL while doing what you love!  Continue reading “Making Sense of it All”

Messages from the Heart

It was just yesterday that I was moving into my neighborhood and scrambling to find a school for My son to go to. He’s now 11 years old. I remember walking into the doors with all the forms, I went straight to the office and handed them in. When it was all said and done, they had told me the room number where my son would be learning. I went straight to Room 109 and glared at the picture that was stuck to the door. It was of a blond woman with a grin from ear to ear…. I had my suspicions of course… I’m a Mom! When the day finally came for me to drop him off to the care of another person… A complete stranger. It was one of the hardest things I could have ever done. Little did I know that I would spend the next 9 years with this particular class. Room 109. I have three kids in total and each one from my oldest son to my youngest daughter have all passed through this class room…. And yesterday was the last day I would be dropping off one of my kids for the first day of kindergarten and chatting with that same teacher in the picture. Oh! BTW, The teacher and I have built a great friendship in and out of the school, that will last a lifetime.

My not so little girl and last child graduated from Senior kindergarten.

I tried to hold it together at the graduation. Seeing the last of my kids all grown up and knowing that there won’t be one to follow. Factory is shut down for maintenance…. Self -maintenance. They’re getting older now and even though my womb will call out every so often for a child to bare. I feel deep down that Its time for to graduate as well. Graduate to ‘Parents of big kids. My oldest is about to go into grade seven. I stayed home and devoted myself to them to make sure that those first few years were the best….and I have to admit that every time one got to a certain age where they don’t need mommy anymore, I would get the baby feeling and out would pop another one. On third one, I said enough is enough. I knew deep down that she was my last. I knew deep down that feeling of changing diapers and breastfeeding was long gone for me. So today was bitter sweet…. As all three of my kids move on to the next milestone in their lives. So will I.

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Retrograde

This retrogrades got me slow moon walking

No talking

Just silence

To find the balance

going backgrounds

trying to find the PALACE in our mind,

Working hard to redesign

Knowing fully well you must leave things behind

that no longer serves us because things were too

Treacherous to deal with.

So for now I must sit…………

 

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Refined

Sometimes when we reach a certain level of success, we tend to take it easy… we need a break from all the work we did to reach that point. It’s ok to give your body a rest , kind of like going into the arms of the Universe so they can shelter you and congratulate you for all the hard work. Put your feet up and relax….. Not for long though….it’s time to reflect and refine ourselves. Hone in our gifts, abilities and talents. The work isn’t over yet.

That was me a week ago… I took some time off to recoup and reflect… and it was definitely time to celebrate!!!… what better way to do that then to have my BFF come from out of province…. I live in Canada. A week with her and the all the kiddies together. We can’t forget some well deserved ladies nights. It was nice to just relax like when we were teenagers. I think getting back together made realize that we are constantly figuring things out to improve ourselves and our over all lives. And to be around those who you love and care about is makes it all a little easier…. makes you you realize that we’re not alone in any of it. It also made me realize that when I relax and let my hair down, I come back with more surge than ever. Remember that age when we thought the world was our oyster and we had no fears. That carefree attitude… I saw a glimpse of that and thought…”I love this side of me”… My guides say “It was always there, it never left.” Now refine yourself like fine wine!… I promise you’ll taste better…. I mean feel better in the long run.

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GLOW!

So I….( just like many others) troll instagram to see what’s what in just about anything. What I love the most, is that you can tailor it to your interests and to those who are like minded from around the globe.

I love to see anything positive and uplifting, (those are my favourite) next in line are the motivational and inspiring posts, (those get me off my butt!) and last but not least….a little sex appeal to remind me I’m still alive…. LOL!

what we seem to forget, is that life doesn’t exist behind the screen and in reality we can sometimes encounter people who are are constantly in transition rather than transformation. Let me explain myself. You can  be transitioning from marriage to  divorce. That transition will of course be sad with a little ugly, but… the Transformation of your self, (the process, the journey) now that’s something to glow about.

If you’re transitioning from one job to the next that can be a little scary but the transformation from one job to an even better job is something to glow about.

why?…..

Because  transforming means that you  are growing into something new and improved.

All I’m saying is that we need not focus on the transition as the transformation is much more important. That is what matters, that is what counts because without the transformation there will be no transition from one to the next. Transitioning can suck but transformation can be exciting and inspiring!!

Affirmation:  I transform through transitions with ease.

I want to  personally glow through every transition and transformation. To celebrate every hiccup, every low and high point. Growing and glowing through it all!

GLOW!!!!!