Well this morning went off as good as it possibly could. I mean I could have stayed in bed all day but morning called. Bonus was I was up before the children after the sleep over. The girls didn’t go to bed until 12:30am which means I didn’t actually go to bed until 1 in the morning. Anyways, My spiritual posse has been calling on me to pay attention, probably because I’ve had a lot on my mind. I pulled an amazing spread that spoke to me on so many levels.

As much about I’m always writing about how to navigate through the treacherous waters of life with love on your side, I’m still this littler girl with Big Dreams. I’ve always dreamt of owning my own business for as long as I could remember, I would play in my room as if it was my office, processing paperwork, all while looking after my baby doll. It was a cabbage patch kid. I’ve never thought I would do anything else. I could never quite put my finger on what the business would be but it was all mine. After having my son I couldn’t quite see myself not staying home to raise him. I also thought it was a good opportunity for me to start my dream business… Whatever that was. Now I’m very creative and am always wanting to invent and reinventing. I also never give up. I have had a lot of different people not believe in me, and honestly though I would make it. It just gave me more of a reason to work harder to prove to myself and to everyone else that dreams do come true.

So to be honest, I’ve been through many start ups and only just getting it off the shelf, only to put the dream back on the shelf. Frustrating of course. I’ve always let fear get to me. Fear of failing and having people tell me I told you so or this fear that I end up working this horrible desk job that pays a lot of money but makes me super miserable. All the woman in my life have worked great jobs but were never happy. So I thought if  did what they did, I would never have the opportunity to find out what makes me happy.  I think I finally figured it out. What makes me happy is ME!. Working on the unknown does for sure stress me out. I mean I do have to navigate between being a mom and being a business owner. Your time is always split, and both jobs are 24/7. But working on the unknown excites me. It makes me realize that I have a lot faith in myself or I wouldn’t keep getting back up again.

The tarot cards that I pulled were so accurate. Projects are fruitful, Faith and Confidence are high and will continue to rise. I need to stay focused AF and all will be well. I have to say, although my computer was giving me a mild heart attack earlier during the day due to all these software updates for 2019. Ugh!. Just when I’m trying to set 2019 off right. I guess it’s just a reminder that anything can happen during this process. I’m sure I’ll have a lot more to share.

Well before I head off to bed…. Yesterday was the first launch of Righteous Sun website out to the social media crowd. I kept it quiet to my Fam. I actually kept it quiet with almost everyone. I didn’t want the distractions, and I also second guess myself. This project feels different then the others. Maybe because for the first time it’s for me. Most of the other projects were for other people. Whether it was for my kids creating kids accessories for them or me giving a healing to others who were in need. This one just feels different. It makes me nervous as hell but I’m taking it all in stride. BTW… The launch is my online cosmetic and skin care Boutique. My goal is to provide people with all natural vegan friendly cruelty free cosmetics and skin care for the everyday and play!… You like those play on words?… Lol!

Ok Its getting late. I’m putting out there that I will be making $60,000 plus by the end of 2019. Big Dreams I guess… But Why Not?

Well, it’s a learning process for sure when it comes to running a small business. I felt like I have dived a lot deeper than before, and the Universe is telling me to Woman up. Sigh! My finances are currently in hot water. “I AM PROSPEROUS” and I am being forced to make a lot of changes in my life in order to accommodate where my spirit currently is. Which in my opinion is light years ahead. So I have to keep up in more ways than one.

Over the summer I was battling with myself over getting a full time day job or sticking with my small business. I have an accepted partnership with the Toronto District School Board. Now what you need to know is that I had many proposals to many organizations, all of them being rejected except for one. The TDSB. I always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher, and after volunteering in my child school, I really wanted to make a difference and get paid.  So they accepted my proposal and got to work right away from January to June. The income became scarce once school was out for the summer and that’s when I got to thinking. When you have kids, it becomes tough to just do side hustle jobs like cleaning or working at the casino which all pays well by the way, it’s just that it’s a monthly income rather than every two weeks and it’s part time. I have a responsibility to provide for my kids and sometimes the best thing to do is to work a full day job and teach classes at night. Just a thought….You know, An easier way to supplement what I love to do. I also feel like I’m being impatient with the process. It would be nice to have fast results, especially when it comes to providing for my kids.

I spoke with a small business consultant and she basically said if I wasn’t making my small business my everything and contemplating going back to a full time job than I should just quit all together and that running a business wasn’t up my alley. She also thought I got a bad deal with my the school contract and told me I should get out of it as soon as possible. Kind of tough for me to hear that considering everything I worked hard to achieve and achieved most of them. Gary Vee, the motivational speaker says that there will be a lot of people that will give you advice. Just remember that most of them will be giving advice based on their own experiences which will be biased and might not have your best interest at hand. In my opinion I thought I did the best I could with the knowledge I had when signing the contract.

The consultant was a little biased, but she did say some valuable things…

  • Always make contracts work for you. Meaning you don’t have to sign the first contract that is put in front of you. Tweak it until it works for you. There is no harm in changing a contract until it suits you and all parties involved. But most You.
  • Know Your Worth. I am guilty of this one. Feeling like your gifts, talents and skills are not up to par with the rest. Go back and look at all your skill levels, I’m sure you’ll be pleasantly surprised with how much you have accomplished and all the gifts that you possess. If you feel like you haven’t accomplished much?… Be gentle with yourself and level up! take some weekend courses if you can go the library or to your closest book store! They have great learning material that can educate and inspire you. Any way to add value to yourself is a plus. And when you feel worthy about yourself, others will to.
  • Set realistic goals and expectations. Sometimes we have so many amazing ideas and we have no idea how to put all of them into action, let alone one into action. That’s why it is important to set real life goals. Write down your thoughts and ideas are so important because its like the next step before execution. Trying the idea out in the real world to see if it works or not. Now your expectations should always exceed beyond compare but please remember that its ok to be gentle with yourself if you don’t exceed it right away. There will be times….. When you won’t succeed on the first try. Never give up! and take it one step at a time so that you don’t repeat the same pattern and you find different routes. A door will eventually open.

Last but not least…

BE CONFIDENT! Never be afraid to ask for what you want and be confident in your dreams. Really believe and have faith in yourself and in the universe that things will always be provided for you and your family. Have faith in you ability to succeed, have faith in your gifts and use them with GUSTO! When you really get to know yourself, the confidence begins to grow within you because your getting comfortable in your skin and you’re allowing for spirit to take over. What a blessing!

I’ve realized once again that my passion and purpose must be done in this lifetime and it’s all life lessons. So I’m going to be gentle with myself during this process and not force things into existence due to fear. Ground yourself! to allow for sound decisions to be made and silence yourself for answers to come freely.

It’s a Sunday afternoon and after having a not so great sleep, I woke up to Miss Aunt Flow this morning. Ladies, have you have had this moment where you feel this intense feeling of emotion that connects with you on some deep spiritual level, making you feel that your spiritual posse has some serious important message to divulge to you?… only to realize that it was just your period making you feel all types of ways?…and of course you can never decode the message.  I always feel like some High Priestess ready to spread deep knowledge to the world around that time of the month. Men take note; you can learn a lot from this. LOL!

Anyway now that I’m not all the way in my feelings and my emotions are not all over the place, I figured I would give myself some time to write. The kids are playing quietly with their friends after jumping around a hot ass gym for a bit. I clean a gym part time so that I can continue to live out my passion and see my dreams come true. A lot more work than I anticipated but worth it.

I have made a pack to release old thoughts and habits and replace them with positive encouragements and healthy habits. I’m beginning to realize that I have a duty to this body that I was born into and I want to see it shine in every way possible.

Note to self: Our spirit never wants to see us struggling or out of sorts. Its kind of like even though our bodies and spirits are one with each other, it still has a way of taking us off track every now then just to remind us of how it feels to be a hot mess. Cause we sure know no one out there likes to be a hot mess and misaligned with life.

Good question…. What are ways that you bounce back when you feel out of wack? and are you able to recognize when you are out of wack?

I know when it’s time to realign myself when I become like Tony Montana from Scarface… Just kidding…but I can get irritable when I’m emotionally off. This whole thing of feeling like a hermit has forced me to easily slip in and out of meditation. It feels pretty nice considering that has always been something that’s been hard for me to fully attain.

Higher Self: Meditation is not something that is attainable. It’s just something that always is.

Meaning Silence is always there…. Sometimes meditation can just sit above the surface, because our minds are so active that it actually takes longer for it to completely rest and be still. Leaving us to never fully deepen our conscious experience.

It’s kind of like the eclipse season is bringing us back to our source. The beginning of the beginning. You know what I’m talking about, Atlantis and the planet Sirius? The Mermaids, dragons and avatars?….  There was a time when everything lived in harmonious love. Remember?… If not, I’ll have to leave it for another blog session. It’s Actually one of my favourite memories that helped me to heal in a lot more ways than I even knew it would.

Great news!… I’ve sealed the deal with teaching yoga at the gym, starting in the Fall… Yeah ME!… I’ve also realized my worth and will be charging just a little under the going rate here in Toronto. Looking forward to teaching and generating more income from  what I love to do. Anyway off to take the kids to the park and tire them out hopefully.

FYI: As a parent, my favourite time of the day is bedtime…. LOL!

 

 

Ok guys!….. I’ve been battling with this for some time now and I think…. wait I know that it’s fully time to make a commitment to myself and to my surroundings. I’m talking about the people I am surrounding myself with.

When I moved to my community, I was on the mends from being broken. I was living with my Mother after moving house to house. FYI… There is nothing better than your Mother’s house and love to get you straight again. I had my two kids and had just started to rebuild a relationship with their Dad…. I was definitely still trying to figure it all out. So I guess you could say I was fresh. Fresh meaning new to this whole thing of stepping out of my comfort zone. So it had made sense for me to move into the neighborhood that I’ve called home for the past 9 years. my neighborhood is a place for a lot of new comers and first time home buyers, but its also home to largest housing community who are on assistance. Let’s just say it’s a community in transition.

9 years is a long time, but in those 9 years I grew up in every aspect of my life. Through that growth, I was able to find my voice, set boundaries and heal my spirit in a way that made my ancestors very proud of me. I rewrote history to be the first one in my family to start and own a business. So you can see that living in the hood as some would call it has benefited me. living in housing with all the drama and same victim stories is what makes me work just as hard to get out.

From the moment I moved in here, I knew it was important to surround myself with positive people. Which I did. It is never a mistake when the Universe pairs you with people…. NEVER!!!! Perhaps it was a karmic relationship that needed to be completed or your positive vibes attracted you to one another…. Either way, not a mistake. Every person that I was around led to more growth and understanding of myself and to amazing opportunities. It’s nice to feel and be supported no matter what, and I needed the support as did all the other women I encountered.

Years have passed and even though we keep in touch, we’ve all grown in so many ways that it only makes sense to fly and spread your wings, which is what happened. You know it can sometimes get lonely when you begin to move to your higher self. Once you begin vibrating on another level, you tend to noticed when someone is vibrating lower than you and well then…. You just want to run the other way. So this overhaul thing really has to do with me making a commitment to NOT FUCK with ANYONE who is NOT SERVING their HIGHER PURPOSE. Cause let’s be real, If they aren’t serving their own higher purpose, there is no way they can serve mine.

You know people say you attract what you are….BUT….. I was on IG and someone had posted that it was a myth and the reality is that their are people out their who are constantly running on low vibes and will latch on to those who run on a higher vibe for replenishment. There are just some people who are will always bring the drama or the gossip and there are some who want to always make excuses. Meanwhile  repeating the same bullshit and continue to vibe around the same people they know is no good for them. Well…. I’M OVER IT!….

I’m over it because I’ve heard it all before (in my singing voice.) I’ve heard the same sob stories with little to no change and I’m doing a complete overhaul of who I will  and will not fuck with. How can I get my money right or my career if I’m constantly hanging around people who are not on time for life. Who are still sleep walking. Some would say, ‘ You should be more sensitive to other people’s spiritual growth’ But what people need to realize that if you’re growing internally, you will automatically see results externally. As IG Artist @lonniebee said, ‘I will still fuck with but I wont stay stuck you’….Truth!, but I want to take it a step further because I believe in order to make room for new peeps in your life….others have to fall off….Sending you safe travels.

Even as parents, we need to make sure that who are kids are hanging with. I make it a habit to only hang with parents and family who are not full of drama and outlandish stories, but still looking for solids in my life, if you catch my drift. If you’re questionable, then my kids won’t be going over to play. It would be like sending them into the lions den. What kind of Mom would I be?

Bottom line….. I want to continue to make moves and no longer stand still. That is why I am more determined then ever to accomplish my goals. That and I’m getting to old for it all. Have I truly outgrown my neighborhood?

What ways are you trying to make moves? and do you find yourself outgrowing certain people and things?

It’s Time to Level Up!!

Would love to hear you comments. You can connect with me on righteoussun.co

and yo can also find me on IG under Rightoeussoleil where I post me and all my positive vibes.

Also decided to start a Patreon page under righteoussun so we’ll see where I’ll go with that one. I do want to find ways to connect and help others all around the globe.

So stay tune!

It’s raining Cats and Dogs out here in Toronto. We needed it… We’ve had an amazing yet summer. Not complaining about it at all… Just means more time at the beach or pool side. It is August. So after taking time to make sense of it all, I realized I still have a lot of love to give back to my inner child. You know ever since completing the Reiki level three to become a Reiki Master. It has been a beautiful and interesting transformation all at the same time. It’s been gradual and quiet, all done behind the scenes but showcased through my actions. Some of it even catching me by surprise. sigh! It still feels like I have long way to go and it all starts and ends with me. Me stepping out of my comfort zone and taking chances and having faith that everything will work out….

I went out of my comfort zone and began selling myself once again. I asked two facilities if there was space available, both sounded like they were on board. I always feel like a little girl asking if she could have a cookie before dinner… always anticipating a no answer but asking anyways. SMH! I guess growing up in a household where there was a lot of physical and verbal abuse, as child the last thing you wanted to do was ask for anything let alone talk back. I did that to keep me safe, because I believed and still do sometimes that no one has your best interest at hand but you, and your spirit knows that or it wouldn’t have protected me my entire life.

I plan on seeing a space today at 7pm and the other gym should be automatically a go…It’s my daughters Gymnastics club. I feel like Kevin Costner in Field of Dreams… “If You build it, They will come.” I am currently teaching kids yoga through the District school board and that’s been working out nicely but I need to get my hustle on if I want to make this my full time. I want to widen my audience and normally when I teach the kids, the parents or the guardian always ask if I teach elsewhere. So I figured why not. If I create the class, surely people will come. I’m giving myself some mental time and not starting until the fall… I feel like that gives me enough time to spread the word. Praying to the Gods that this helps the shift in my career.

What are ways that you’re helping the shift occur in your life? Are you like me and stepping out of your comfort zone in order to achieve results? I would love to hear your thoughts.

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Wow!… Where to begin. To go all the way to the beginning would be a little much but would probably help me to understand why I am so committed to the term “Knowing Thy Self”.   Of course as a spiritual healer it wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t tell you that everything is a little backwards right now because of the Retrograde happening  in outer space. For those who are not in the astrology loop, a retrograde is a great time to stop everything in its tracks and do three important things. Rest, Reflect and Relax. Sounds amazing doesn’t it? Well…. A retrograde doesn’t always work out that way. What normally happens is that it forces everything to stop dead in its tracks and then rewinds it, all to make sure that you got the message so that you don’t repeat it again.

In my opinion, Retrogrades are like a bully that keeps pushing you down even when you keep getting back up every single time. Now that my friend, is called resiliency.

Retrogrades have done a number on my life and it’s always been about the same thing…. Finances. I was never one to want to work for someone if it wasn’t making me feel fulfilled. I also still feel this up to  this day, that if I was dreading waking up and doing a job that I didn’t love then my life was for what?….If that makes any sense. I’ve had a dream ever since I was a little girl…. To give and receive as much love as possible in this life time.

I grew up in a family that showed little love if any. And I saw a lot of hard work that went into building a foundation off of materialistic items rather than healthy unapologetic LOVE. I can’t blame them… and maybe I can’t blame myself for the decision I’ve had to battle with.

After having my son who is now 12…. I knew the moment I laid eyes on him, I could never leave him in the care of not one single soul until he could speak for himself. I was supposed to go back to my job as a receptionist but I was just figuring this whole Mom thing out and just getting the hang of it. He brought so much joy and a surge of possibilities and wonders that I forgot was there. Besides, Daycare was and still is a mortgage payment. So with that I chose to stay home….

I went on to have two more kids, all of them three years apart. I worked part time here and there and every now and then would run into people who I thought had amazing jobs and lives,  going through University and whole bit  and they would say that they were unhappy. so how to make sense of it all….

I’ve never had much in terms of finances, even as a kid and I hated it! I hated not being able to go on trips around the world like all my friends, to go to Florida for March break. You get the gest of it. I still haven’t been to Disneyland and I’m pretty sure you can’t get to Disneyland on love alone…. Can you?

I’ve always dreamed of starting my own business spreading love and healing others because I know how difficult it is to heal on our own…. And when you’re a Mom where that child needs you for everything including it’s memories and happiness…Sigh!…It can feel like A LOT of pressure. I can confidently say that if I never took that night to just sit in silence on my balcony I would have never known the joy of meditation. If I never took that prenatal yoga class downtown, which I might add, I was super afraid to go to on my own but I did… I would have never known the true joy and  of the gentleness of my body and what it was capable of doing. Body, mind and spirit. It changed my life.

You know now that I think about it…. It was spirit all along guiding me back to me. I did what I said I was going to do which was to open a healing business. However business has been slow getting off the ground. Yoga could be more consistent and that comes down to me having more confidence in going out there and believing in my gifts and promoting myself.

So I’m not sure if the Universe trying to tell me to find the balance of working a full time job to create a stable foundation to continue to work of the Universe or is it that the stable foundation comes from healthy love and the rest is history. Just trust the process.

I’ve went to many of profound gifted people who have all said that I will have a business that will literally grow on its own.  So far so good in the Yoga department. That I will travel the world spreading positive vibes and love and that I will inspire many people in the process. In the core of my being, I believe that with all my heart. It’s a bit difficult to see the bigger picture when other obstacles get in the way though.

The truth is….. I don’t want to go back to work full time in the corporate world. I’ve worked so hard in not only finding my voice and building the confidence to achieve what I’ve achieved up to this point and those are amazing accomplishments in itself. It just feels like I’m giving up and taking the easy route or the safest one…. But I want a house with a backyard and I want to travel with my family and experience all the wonders of the world… AND… have the means to do it without having to choose or scrounge…. ALL while doing what you love!  (more…)

I’ve been feeling recently a pool by my spiritual posse to utilize the gifts that have been the stowed upon me from the moment of conception. Why am talking like a mid century woman is beyond me. I guess it just seems fitting… LOL!. We are all giving gifts that are passed down from our ancestors through our DNA. Now I’m sure you know somebody or perhaps yourself where a specific talent or thing comes easy to them. A natural gift.

Are you deep down believe I have many talents or so I’ve told myself as a child I enjoyed the arts and most of all dance. Both of them are perfect because I didn’t have to speak. I was a super shy kid if you know what I mean.

By high school dance was my every day well at least in my bedroom. Dance was financially out of my reach so I would watch music videos and practice in my room. It was a release at times… like therapy. Now realizing as an adult, dance was my saviour.

Now that I think about it I was always creating art of some kind growing up. My mom still has my watercolour portrait of dopey from the seven doors from grade 7 thanks Mom!

Going down the list… I am a great listener and I have good enough intuition to tell a person all about themselves in emotional and personality level. I am very personable when it comes to interacting with others young and old and my friend just texted me the other day saying I was wise beyond belief

So basically what I’m saying is that whether we realize it or not we are blessed with gifts talents and abilities from day one. I remember someone saying to me, “Rashida it would be a sin for you to never use the gifts God has givenyou.”You know what’s funny those gifts were actually were healed me I am such a private person when it comes to my journey and every journey is personal but it’s healed me to receive many blessings in my life and my families life do what you love which should be you!…. you should love you so do you do what makes you feel good do what comes naturally to you I truly believe love is strength and love conquers all right but love is also gentle and kind and soft and sweet those are the ones that come to my mind when I think of love so love yourself enough to read discover you and to do you and to get to know you so that all of your gifts and strengths can shine through.