life lessons, Messages from the Heart, Uncategorized

Know Thy Fu%king Self

Wow! what a title right? You know what’s funny?…. I’ve actually left the title blank just in case one of the kids wake up and come into the living room… They can read you know…LOL! and they’re nosy like all kids.

For some reason, I feel like my body is going through a metamorphosis of some kind. Like a combination of the Transformers meets Care Bears slash Jem and the Holograms. That fall season is creeping up. Summertime was fun but it’s time to go deeper within. In thought and in life, and the changing of the weather does that. Fall brings a sophistication to the whole changing of the seasons.

But….. Back to the title and why I chose it. I LOVE astrology charts and horoscopes, Tarot cards, you get the idea. I love anything that connects back to the centre of it all. So in my younger days, I took it very seriously and would hang off of every word that I read when it came to a psychic or a horoscope. It’s like I would wait to hear what my horoscope said to make the next move. It never got out of hand but I became very reliant on it for emotional purposes. Not reading everything in entirety and only taking the pieces that I wanted. Sometimes great things came about and other times…. well let’s just….

You should always pay attention to the entire picture. That way you won’t miss a thing.

Anyways, it became this journey to find out ME!….. That’s why I read the horoscopes and went to the psychic, who was amazing by the way. She was like a Grandma to me if only for a bit. She was small in stature, Scottish and her name was Doreen. She was a gift to the world. We will leave that story for another day as well.

The more I read about astrology and the horoscope for the Libra sign, the more I began to understand that I could navigate through this world with the help of the Universe. The Universe within me really.

So I was sent a website that gives you a free detailed astrology chart once you put in all your info. I wasn’t going to do it because one of the things that I’ve been working on is to really and I mean really have more faith in myself and my intuition. I’ve done one before and it’s pretty accurate and this one was no different.  To be honest, Since I’ve made a commitment to get to know myself more on a deeper level, it has made me realize that I really fucking know more about my self than I thought. Reading as much as I could of the chart (it is crazy long!) only solidified all the hidden parts of me that only I already knew was there… I was just keeping to myself.  Those who are close to me know the hidden side of me from time to time and even then, only You know You in the end.

By reading my traits and how I operate in the world, I realized that I have a lot to offer the world and that it’s my traits and personality that has gotten me this far and will get me through the rest of this journey with the help of the Universe of course.

Getting the time to get to know the Fuck out of Yourself is probably the most important thing you can do in life. Even if no one else can see the work you’re doing internally, know that it is just as important.

Note to self: You can’t use your gifts talents and abilities if you don’t know who you are.

Just an update, I have posted up the Flyers for my official independent 8 week yoga class. I’m feeling really confident about it….. I was going to say that I feel really good about it but confident yelled in my ear so I had to switch it up. It’s time to shine the light and help others shine their light too.

I’m not afraid of the dark anymore!


Messages from the Heart, Uncategorized

You’re A Star!




Ever since being introduced to Reiki and being initiated in the Reiki level 3. Many things have started to become very real and clear to me.

The other night I was putting the kids to bed, when I decided to lay down beside them in hopes that I could get them to sleep faster. As I laid beside my daughter and closed my eyes, I immediately saw a glimpse of a shaded figure. She was luminous in bright gold. She looked like a star, Literally!. She was two dimensional, and I couldn’t see her face at all.

A beautiful a star she was. However, I couldn’t help notice that this bright two dimensional figure had large circular spirals that blocked some of the light from shining on her face. They were like splotches or blemishes. As fast as I closed my eyes, I immediately opened them. I open my eyes to see my daughter, squirming in the bed in the attempts to get comfortable. She turned on her side, looked at me and said, “Mommy, every time I close my eyes it feels like I am sleeping sideways.” It definitely took me by surprise because the figure that I saw, was a figure of her.

At first I thought, ‘Well, most people start off sleeping one way and by the end of the night are sleeping a totally different way, never to realize until the morning. I took a moment to reflect after she settled and went to sleep. My intuitive side has heightened  over the last couple of years and have really quieted the mind to allow me to listen to my guides better. So I asked them, (My guides that it is). I asked them what the image was that I saw when I closed me eyes…. They said it was my daughter’s aura.

With a little research, I learned that our spirit body can come and go into different dimensions. Especially when dealing with past lives needing to fix itself in the present time.( Let’s leave that topic for another day). Now that I was aware that it was my daughter’s aura and the color was gold. I  wanted to learn more about the gold aura traits.

To start off, auras are a subtle field of luminous radiation surrounding a person or thing. A gold aura individual is a lover of beauty and has an artistic flare. If anyone knows my daughter that is her to a “T”. They love to be the centre of attention and appreciate the finer things in life and enjoy adorning themselves with exquisite beauty. They are the bright star in a crowd. Gold aura people are not just takers of time, affection and attention, but they are also great givers of their time, energy and love. Gold aura people DO NOT like to be criticised and are quickly embarrassed when their flaws are exposed. They are very proud and fiercely independent, never asking for help. The patches or splotches that I saw in the gold aura figure?. Those were unwanted blemishes in the aura, which can come from traumatic events in past lives or emotional, mental pressures as well as anxiety in the present life. This will usually manifest itself as dark dull Aura colors. My daughter can  get anxiety when she is caught off guard by loud noises.

In the case of my daughter, she fits a lot of the gold traits. As for the blemishes or patches that I saw. Well, I am not sure what happened in her past lives to receive them, but I will continue to give her as much love as I possibly can. I will also continue to administer Reiki to my little ‘Mamasita’ as it has helped her so far. Remember, Reiki helps the body and spirit heal from past lives up to present. I imagine that one day just like many, her spirit will become whole again.