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Holiday Hangover

Is it just me, or do you feel like you just woke up from a hangover a few days after Christmas?. It’s like there’s a lull between Christmas and New Years. Like we’re all suspended in mid air. Well I for one felt it and have felt that for many years, even growing up I felt it. It was like a CRESCENDO!!! leading up to Christmas and a DECRESCSENDO right after. Some how we try and keep the momentum going by getting up real early the next morning for Boxing day shopping…. You know they already have the Valentine’s day goodies out in the store….I can’t.

I GOT IT!…This lull gives us just enough time to realize how much money we’ve really spent this Christmas. Ugh!… Or we could think of it as the in between to collect our thoughts before the New Year. A recap if you will of what went down and how we can change the future simply by switching it up and trying  a different path.

Side Note: Doing things that are out of our comfort zone can also be good for our spirits.

Like a burst of rainbows…. Skittles or even Unicorns. Like it was waiting to come out breathe. Go ahead!…. Take that deep breath!

2019 is on its way!…I feel like the last few days has been an amp up to all the grandiose things  to come. A time to rest and reflect on all the lessons we’ve learned. Because there’s no such thing as mistakes, just lessons.

What lessons have you learned over the past year that strikes a nerve with you. Something that makes you say, “I will never repeat that ever again. I  learned to value myself a lot more. That I damn well deserve anything and everything that the Universe has to offer just like everyone else.

 Owning the Responsibilities of Success.

Success can sometimes pass us by because we’re not ready for the responsibilities that come along with it or we don’t have enough faith in the fact that we CAN take on the responsibilities that come along with success. The failures and all.

I will only hold space for positive people, things and situations. As you get older, you realize what’s good for the soul is good for the spirit. I recognize when its time to walk away from unhealthy shit!

I’ve also learned that you only live once on this earth as who you are today… So live it up. It’s ok if you’re currently in a bit of a rut. It will soon pass, It always does. It’s about keeping that CRESCENDO going until you reach the point of no return…And when you do return, just make sure that when you return on the most fluffiest cloud made of pink Gold looking Fabulous AF!

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When enough is enough

Ok guys!… When is enough in your books? I mean what is your breaking point in terms of reaching your limit?… I am currently in the process of moving my kids to school that is a lot safer and with like minded people. When I moved into my neighborhood, I was in transition. I matched perfectly with my neighborhood and what the current issues are. constantly in fight or Flight mode. I began learning and healing and eventually growing and transforming out of the trauma. It was like it no longer served my purpose. I had healed and moved on. I allowed my kids to stay at a school where it was obviously unsafe but I couldn’t see that because I was in the same transition as them. I want to say,’ How could I be so blind but when you wake up, its not all at once, its in stages.  Right? I’ve grown in stages and I am about to complete a phase in my life. No more Fight or Flight mode. I’m in living mode for myself and my family.

So how do you now you’ve reached the end of a phase?….

You’re reaction to the same situation is different this time. it’s like you no longer have time for the same story and feelings that comes along with it. You can now recognize how it makes you feel and quickly create boundaries to protect yourself.

You will feel like you’ve reached the end of a chapter. A completion and possibly a resolution that was never quite there until now. If we’re lucky, it can occur around a your Birthday or New Years. Those are endings and beginning kind of moments.

If you’re not already hanging out with like minded people…. You will!… the old you can’t fuck around with the same energy… I remember hearing someone say, “I’ll still fuck with you but I won’t stay stuck with you. Words to live by. Even then, be careful who you continue to hang with. If they aren’t for the greater good of you and the process then it’s time to level up to people who match your vibration.

As we get ready to end 2018 and move on to 2019. 2+1+9= 12 and twelve means completions. 2018 was and is about our dreams and desires and making them known to the Universe and 2019 is all about putting them into practice and watching them flourish.

It feels nice to let go and move on and I look forward to the continued growth that I’m committed to.

Affirmation: I AM OPEN TO ALL THE POSITIVITY THAT THE UNIVERSE HAS TO OFFER

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Know Thy Fu%king Self

Wow! what a title right? You know what’s funny?…. I’ve actually left the title blank just in case one of the kids wake up and come into the living room… They can read you know…LOL! and they’re nosy like all kids.

For some reason, I feel like my body is going through a metamorphosis of some kind. Like a combination of the Transformers meets Care Bears slash Jem and the Holograms. That fall season is creeping up. Summertime was fun but it’s time to go deeper within. In thought and in life, and the changing of the weather does that. Fall brings a sophistication to the whole changing of the seasons.

But….. Back to the title and why I chose it. I LOVE astrology charts and horoscopes, Tarot cards, you get the idea. I love anything that connects back to the centre of it all. So in my younger days, I took it very seriously and would hang off of every word that I read when it came to a psychic or a horoscope. It’s like I would wait to hear what my horoscope said to make the next move. It never got out of hand but I became very reliant on it for emotional purposes. Not reading everything in entirety and only taking the pieces that I wanted. Sometimes great things came about and other times…. well let’s just….

You should always pay attention to the entire picture. That way you won’t miss a thing.

Anyways, it became this journey to find out ME!….. That’s why I read the horoscopes and went to the psychic, who was amazing by the way. She was like a Grandma to me if only for a bit. She was small in stature, Scottish and her name was Doreen. She was a gift to the world. We will leave that story for another day as well.

The more I read about astrology and the horoscope for the Libra sign, the more I began to understand that I could navigate through this world with the help of the Universe. The Universe within me really.

So I was sent a website that gives you a free detailed astrology chart once you put in all your info. I wasn’t going to do it because one of the things that I’ve been working on is to really and I mean really have more faith in myself and my intuition. I’ve done one before and it’s pretty accurate and this one was no different.  To be honest, Since I’ve made a commitment to get to know myself more on a deeper level, it has made me realize that I really fucking know more about my self than I thought. Reading as much as I could of the chart (it is crazy long!) only solidified all the hidden parts of me that only I already knew was there… I was just keeping to myself.  Those who are close to me know the hidden side of me from time to time and even then, only You know You in the end.

By reading my traits and how I operate in the world, I realized that I have a lot to offer the world and that it’s my traits and personality that has gotten me this far and will get me through the rest of this journey with the help of the Universe of course.

Getting the time to get to know the Fuck out of Yourself is probably the most important thing you can do in life. Even if no one else can see the work you’re doing internally, know that it is just as important.

Note to self: You can’t use your gifts talents and abilities if you don’t know who you are.

Just an update, I have posted up the Flyers for my official independent 8 week yoga class. I’m feeling really confident about it….. I was going to say that I feel really good about it but confident yelled in my ear so I had to switch it up. It’s time to shine the light and help others shine their light too.

I’m not afraid of the dark anymore!

 

Body, Mind & Spirit, life lessons, Uncategorized

Complete Overhaul

Ok guys!….. I’ve been battling with this for some time now and I think…. wait I know that it’s fully time to make a commitment to myself and to my surroundings. I’m talking about the people I am surrounding myself with.

When I moved to my community, I was on the mends from being broken. I was living with my Mother after moving house to house. FYI… There is nothing better than your Mother’s house and love to get you straight again. I had my two kids and had just started to rebuild a relationship with their Dad…. I was definitely still trying to figure it all out. So I guess you could say I was fresh. Fresh meaning new to this whole thing of stepping out of my comfort zone. So it had made sense for me to move into the neighborhood that I’ve called home for the past 9 years. my neighborhood is a place for a lot of new comers and first time home buyers, but its also home to largest housing community who are on assistance. Let’s just say it’s a community in transition.

9 years is a long time, but in those 9 years I grew up in every aspect of my life. Through that growth, I was able to find my voice, set boundaries and heal my spirit in a way that made my ancestors very proud of me. I rewrote history to be the first one in my family to start and own a business. So you can see that living in the hood as some would call it has benefited me. living in housing with all the drama and same victim stories is what makes me work just as hard to get out.

From the moment I moved in here, I knew it was important to surround myself with positive people. Which I did. It is never a mistake when the Universe pairs you with people…. NEVER!!!! Perhaps it was a karmic relationship that needed to be completed or your positive vibes attracted you to one another…. Either way, not a mistake. Every person that I was around led to more growth and understanding of myself and to amazing opportunities. It’s nice to feel and be supported no matter what, and I needed the support as did all the other women I encountered.

Years have passed and even though we keep in touch, we’ve all grown in so many ways that it only makes sense to fly and spread your wings, which is what happened. You know it can sometimes get lonely when you begin to move to your higher self. Once you begin vibrating on another level, you tend to noticed when someone is vibrating lower than you and well then…. You just want to run the other way. So this overhaul thing really has to do with me making a commitment to NOT FUCK with ANYONE who is NOT SERVING their HIGHER PURPOSE. Cause let’s be real, If they aren’t serving their own higher purpose, there is no way they can serve mine.

You know people say you attract what you are….BUT….. I was on IG and someone had posted that it was a myth and the reality is that their are people out their who are constantly running on low vibes and will latch on to those who run on a higher vibe for replenishment. There are just some people who are will always bring the drama or the gossip and there are some who want to always make excuses. Meanwhile  repeating the same bullshit and continue to vibe around the same people they know is no good for them. Well…. I’M OVER IT!….

I’m over it because I’ve heard it all before (in my singing voice.) I’ve heard the same sob stories with little to no change and I’m doing a complete overhaul of who I will  and will not fuck with. How can I get my money right or my career if I’m constantly hanging around people who are not on time for life. Who are still sleep walking. Some would say, ‘ You should be more sensitive to other people’s spiritual growth’ But what people need to realize that if you’re growing internally, you will automatically see results externally. As IG Artist @lonniebee said, ‘I will still fuck with but I wont stay stuck you’….Truth!, but I want to take it a step further because I believe in order to make room for new peeps in your life….others have to fall off….Sending you safe travels.

Even as parents, we need to make sure that who are kids are hanging with. I make it a habit to only hang with parents and family who are not full of drama and outlandish stories, but still looking for solids in my life, if you catch my drift. If you’re questionable, then my kids won’t be going over to play. It would be like sending them into the lions den. What kind of Mom would I be?

Bottom line….. I want to continue to make moves and no longer stand still. That is why I am more determined then ever to accomplish my goals. That and I’m getting to old for it all. Have I truly outgrown my neighborhood?

What ways are you trying to make moves? and do you find yourself outgrowing certain people and things?

It’s Time to Level Up!!

Would love to hear you comments. You can connect with me on righteoussun.co

and yo can also find me on IG under Rightoeussoleil where I post me and all my positive vibes.

Also decided to start a Patreon page under righteoussun so we’ll see where I’ll go with that one. I do want to find ways to connect and help others all around the globe.

So stay tune!

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Follow Up

It’s raining Cats and Dogs out here in Toronto. We needed it… We’ve had an amazing yet summer. Not complaining about it at all… Just means more time at the beach or pool side. It is August. So after taking time to make sense of it all, I realized I still have a lot of love to give back to my inner child. You know ever since completing the Reiki level three to become a Reiki Master. It has been a beautiful and interesting transformation all at the same time. It’s been gradual and quiet, all done behind the scenes but showcased through my actions. Some of it even catching me by surprise. sigh! It still feels like I have long way to go and it all starts and ends with me. Me stepping out of my comfort zone and taking chances and having faith that everything will work out….

I went out of my comfort zone and began selling myself once again. I asked two facilities if there was space available, both sounded like they were on board. I always feel like a little girl asking if she could have a cookie before dinner… always anticipating a no answer but asking anyways. SMH! I guess growing up in a household where there was a lot of physical and verbal abuse, as child the last thing you wanted to do was ask for anything let alone talk back. I did that to keep me safe, because I believed and still do sometimes that no one has your best interest at hand but you, and your spirit knows that or it wouldn’t have protected me my entire life.

I plan on seeing a space today at 7pm and the other gym should be automatically a go…It’s my daughters Gymnastics club. I feel like Kevin Costner in Field of Dreams… “If You build it, They will come.” I am currently teaching kids yoga through the District school board and that’s been working out nicely but I need to get my hustle on if I want to make this my full time. I want to widen my audience and normally when I teach the kids, the parents or the guardian always ask if I teach elsewhere. So I figured why not. If I create the class, surely people will come. I’m giving myself some mental time and not starting until the fall… I feel like that gives me enough time to spread the word. Praying to the Gods that this helps the shift in my career.

What are ways that you’re helping the shift occur in your life? Are you like me and stepping out of your comfort zone in order to achieve results? I would love to hear your thoughts.

If you live in Toronto, Canada and are in the Greater Toronto Area, Keep an eye out for my yoga classes and for the rest, my healing services are always available.

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Making Sense of it All

Wow!… Where to begin. To go all the way to the beginning would be a little much but would probably help me to understand why I am so committed to the term “Knowing Thy Self”.   Of course as a spiritual healer it wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t tell you that everything is a little backwards right now because of the Retrograde happening  in outer space. For those who are not in the astrology loop, a retrograde is a great time to stop everything in its tracks and do three important things. Rest, Reflect and Relax. Sounds amazing doesn’t it? Well…. A retrograde doesn’t always work out that way. What normally happens is that it forces everything to stop dead in its tracks and then rewinds it, all to make sure that you got the message so that you don’t repeat it again.

In my opinion, Retrogrades are like a bully that keeps pushing you down even when you keep getting back up every single time. Now that my friend, is called resiliency.

Retrogrades have done a number on my life and it’s always been about the same thing…. Finances. I was never one to want to work for someone if it wasn’t making me feel fulfilled. I also still feel this up to  this day, that if I was dreading waking up and doing a job that I didn’t love then my life was for what?….If that makes any sense. I’ve had a dream ever since I was a little girl…. To give and receive as much love as possible in this life time.

I grew up in a family that showed little love if any. And I saw a lot of hard work that went into building a foundation off of materialistic items rather than healthy unapologetic LOVE. I can’t blame them… and maybe I can’t blame myself for the decision I’ve had to battle with.

After having my son who is now 12…. I knew the moment I laid eyes on him, I could never leave him in the care of not one single soul until he could speak for himself. I was supposed to go back to my job as a receptionist but I was just figuring this whole Mom thing out and just getting the hang of it. He brought so much joy and a surge of possibilities and wonders that I forgot was there. Besides, Daycare was and still is a mortgage payment. So with that I chose to stay home….

I went on to have two more kids, all of them three years apart. I worked part time here and there and every now and then would run into people who I thought had amazing jobs and lives,  going through University and whole bit  and they would say that they were unhappy. so how to make sense of it all….

I’ve never had much in terms of finances, even as a kid and I hated it! I hated not being able to go on trips around the world like all my friends, to go to Florida for March break. You get the gest of it. I still haven’t been to Disneyland and I’m pretty sure you can’t get to Disneyland on love alone…. Can you?

I’ve always dreamed of starting my own business spreading love and healing others because I know how difficult it is to heal on our own…. And when you’re a Mom where that child needs you for everything including it’s memories and happiness…Sigh!…It can feel like A LOT of pressure. I can confidently say that if I never took that night to just sit in silence on my balcony I would have never known the joy of meditation. If I never took that prenatal yoga class downtown, which I might add, I was super afraid to go to on my own but I did… I would have never known the true joy and  of the gentleness of my body and what it was capable of doing. Body, mind and spirit. It changed my life.

You know now that I think about it…. It was spirit all along guiding me back to me. I did what I said I was going to do which was to open a healing business. However business has been slow getting off the ground. Yoga could be more consistent and that comes down to me having more confidence in going out there and believing in my gifts and promoting myself.

So I’m not sure if the Universe trying to tell me to find the balance of working a full time job to create a stable foundation to continue to work of the Universe or is it that the stable foundation comes from healthy love and the rest is history. Just trust the process.

I’ve went to many of profound gifted people who have all said that I will have a business that will literally grow on its own.  So far so good in the Yoga department. That I will travel the world spreading positive vibes and love and that I will inspire many people in the process. In the core of my being, I believe that with all my heart. It’s a bit difficult to see the bigger picture when other obstacles get in the way though.

The truth is….. I don’t want to go back to work full time in the corporate world. I’ve worked so hard in not only finding my voice and building the confidence to achieve what I’ve achieved up to this point and those are amazing accomplishments in itself. It just feels like I’m giving up and taking the easy route or the safest one…. But I want a house with a backyard and I want to travel with my family and experience all the wonders of the world… AND… have the means to do it without having to choose or scrounge…. ALL while doing what you love!  Continue reading “Making Sense of it All”

Messages from the Heart

July 17th, 2018.

So I’m in the middle of a serious clean. My apartment and mind was a little in disarray. I’m the type of person who cleans in sections… to much for any person can be overwhelming. And I always attribute a cluttered space with a cluttered mind. Im not sure how it works but it works. I think it’s a visual thing and a definite energy thing as well. I am still process as we speak in making a lot more room in my head. I’m just taking a break.

Something happened yesterday that got me thinking. During my serious clean, my little one comes to me and says someone’s at the door. I was in such a zone that I wasn’t really down for any interruptions. I left my mind for a sec and went to see who it was. I’m in a little shock to see my neighbours daughter standing at my door looking tired and frail. She looked like she hadn’t eaten for days if not longer. and she’s only 19yrs old. She had come to ask me if I could clear some crystals that our neighbours had given her for healing. Crystals are amazing for that. I cleared them and she began talking. She’s going to bars with friends and drinking until she passes out. Sigh!…… I cleared her energy the best I could and left her with this because lord knows I love to help the broken spirits….

I said,

Only you can break the cycle that has been passed down to you through energy and DNA. No matter the cards you’ve been felt as a child, good or bad, you have to know deep down that if you had children, you would want the best for them. You would want them to have better life than you did… I’ve been there, we’ve all been there. I’m now in the position of breaking the cycle in my family by owning my own business….And that was me saying, “I want different for myself and for my kids”.

I left it like that and prayed that she left with something. When you think about it, it really is an internal battle. The spirit finding ways to cope with the spiritual scars of life…. even though the spirit is sensitive, its also very resilient. It’s when we put in the extra love that the spirit begins to wake up and remember… we were just to far removed and hurt to see. It all comes down to you.

As a reiki healer and an intuitive spiritual Counsellor, I would love to help others fall back in love with themselves. I am open to receiving new clients and new opportunities that allow me to express my gifts talents and abilities and share them with those who are interested. As I continue to grow in my practice so will the abundance in my life. I am grateful for the here and now and what is to come.

Just a little affirmation out into the Universe.