Body, Mind & Spirit, growth, Uncategorized

A By Product of my existence

These words popped up into my head yesterday. When I heard a family in my neighborhood arguing. Screaming is more like it if you ask me. Anyways, it made me think of me as a kid when my parents would argue. As kid it felt more like screaming and fighting which I still believe is the case now as an adult. I strongly believe that anything can be hashed out with a heated discussion but not aggressive arguments that lead to nowhere. Screaming and yelling is only saying that I am only willing to hear my own voice and opinion and no one else’s thoughts, feelings or words matter.

It just made me think because kids live there and more often then not the adults are fighting. Those same kids are then coming to school and acting out… I wonder why?…As a child who experienced similar situations, I became very quiet and disconnected from people, especially my family and eventually the world. It took  along time for me realize I was safe and that it was safe to use my words. I see it in some of these children who have to experience this unhealthy way of living.

Who will they be when they’re older and how are they going to interact with the world and themselves?

The definition of a By-product is a secondary product derived from a manufacturing process or chemical reaction. It is not the primary product or service being produced.

Did we get that?… it is only secondary and manufactured but not the primary product. Our primary product is our spirit and our spirit is innocent and pure when we come into this world. The by-product is the manufactured bull shit of society. The manufactured belief system that has been engineered and  engrained in our psyche for so long that it has traveled through our ancestors to us in the present day. So am I a by-product of my existence?…Yes, forced into it if you asked me but I made an oath to myself that I would never stay packaged. My packaging and my product will be forever changing and that is what defines who I am.

So for those kids who are now adults who are still a by-product and scarred… For all the children who are currently living in an unhealthy home….. Just breathe, (sigh) no that you are in control of You and your spirit. No one is in charge of your heart and how you use it. So use it for only love.

Affirmation: I have the ability to change my whole existence for the better through love

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