If you have been following me, you would know that on e of my major complaint is not having enough positive peeps in my life. You know the ones that I’m talking about. that Best Friend kind of peep. Now I’m not all about having to many people at my table, as it is by invite only, my friends list is pretty small. I believe that too many friends can cause confusion and delay. If you’re a parent, you know what I mean. (Thomas the Train movement on this page today).
As a kid I wanted to have as many friends as possible, so much so that I couldn’t see between those who had my best interest at hand and those who didn’t. I carried that unwavering feeling of trying to fit in all the way to adulthood. Having kids changed that right away for me. I became a hermit. I think I always I’ve always enjoyed my own company really. I talk to myself and I answer back. I am truly my own best friend. I take my own pics to…..LOL! Sometimes it can be lonely as fuck though. No one to really laugh at your jokes or sing with you in that moment when its needed. No one to come over and have a girls night with….. I do get along with women, I promise. Sigh!
Maybe its for the best….. Not having a lot of girlfriends and all. It just makes things messy. right? For some reason we get jealous way to easy and God forbid we find a man, well that best friend will be M.I.A. until further notice. We become Moms and go M.I.A. Here’s a thought, when we go missing in action, and don’t respond to ourselves, then it’s like we go missing from our true selves, and its up to us to find ourselves again.
Maybe its the Universe telling me to cool it down and relax. There is still more work to be done internally, but I’m still human. I still want to kick back with my girls, whoever they may be.
Sometimes I’m waiting for the Universe to tell me something magical only to tell me to dive deeper. like how much deeper can go. How much deeper do I have to go to see the fruits of my labour? This retrograde has me fucked up. Honestly!…. How about you? how have you been holding up?
Ever since being initiated into Reiki, I lost a lot of people who were no longer on the same vibration level as me. See what reiki does is allows the body to heal itself through light touch administered by a practitioner. If initiated, the practitioner’s spirit fast tracks to the next highest vibrational level. leaving others who are running on a lower vibrational level to fall of. So basically those who do not serve my higher purpose… well, “Boy Bye”. Good for my spirit, it needed a purge. wait1…getting something….. They said, that for all the things that are going to happen for you in and in your life… all of it being major, that we want to make sure that you have the right people in your corner. You know, the ones that genuinely have your back? that really just want to see you win…because when you, we all win.
I have been in my feelings like Drake with Keke, while also acting up like I’m on my worst behaviour or on the verge of it. That’s it I’m definitely in need of some meditation time. Go with the flow, reflect and connect and everything will soon pass. My mantra for the rest of the day. What are ways that you try and connect to other women who are in alignment with the same flow. mind you everyone’s flow is unique but you can still be on the same wave length. Have you had t a change of friends? or realizing that it’s time for change. Are your friends serving your higher purpose and spirit?
And is it lonely at the top? Once again would love to here your thoughts and comments.